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On September 18, 2004, in the context of cigar internet sites, I was subjected publicly to what was without a doubt and without a question the single most vindictive, malicious and scornful written attack ever directed at me that, over the course of the 5 or so hours it was posted, was viewed by hundreds of people among you all, some of whom felt it appropriate to add their own insidious comments. Indeed, the comments and tirade had a profound impact on me. The author had as his intention and specific design to assassinate my character, call into question my loyalties and friendships, tear asunder my moral fiber, undermine my credibility and influence the opinions of others about me. It struck at my very essence, and far from being merely ashamed, I was and remain flabbergasted.

Be that as it may, and it remains beneath my dignity and stature to defend myself against the claims that were made or the accusations so insidiously levied (and I certainly do not confess to being party to any of the horrible things that were said about me and my character and my family, despite the nature of the things put in print and paraded in front of the world), life is simply too short and this realm of internet bantering simply too insignificant to harp on, give emphasis to, or focus on such matters or the person or persons responsible. Ever. Today I read an interesting article in the Newsweek magazine of September 27, 2004, in the “Health for Life” feature written by Jordanna Lewis and Jerry Adler. It is about forgiveness, and it did inspire me. We all need to move on.

I had contemplated a reply meritorious in every aspect to pursue my rights and defend myself against the charges levied, and seek retribution for the corresponding damages that came about as a consequence. However, I choose to abandon that course of action given the overall insignificance of the impact of what was said, where it was said, how it was said, and by whom. Some of you may be or may have been influenced in some material respect by what was said, most of whom do not know me at all except for the influence others may have on the decisions and choices you make in your lives. Nothing I will ever say, and nothing I can or would ever do, would ever change that perspective or view, so it is an exercise in futility to address the charges and allegations or the stories spun. Others who know me know differently about the kind of person I am, my personal and professional life, and a myriad of other things that I will gladly share with anyone who is interested. I certainly have nothing to hide, and I certainly have no excuses for, or anything to explain away about, any event or series of events that touch my life, or that I touch with my life. So indeed, there is absolutely no utility in rehashing events, defending myself, trying to set the record straight, or anything like that.

This is also a time in my faith where we individually are called upon to look introspectively about what is important and what is not important in our lives, and become better persons, and to seek forgiveness not only from others who may have been wronged by something we did or said, but also from the universal force of nature that guides us, whether it be God, Allah, Jesus Christ, or whatever force or spirit moves us, by shedding the shackles of revenge, retribution, and so on, that confine and bind us so that we may live fruitful and meaningful lives. Lives of charity and doing good deeds, helping others, and so on.

I certainly do not fear what was said by anyone. Right or wrong, accurate or not, these things have callously been made a matter of public record now. No matter that could be spun or about which tales could be told was left untouched, albeit in the most insidious and malicious of lights. People can say what they want, over and over again, and in the large scale of things, it does not matter.

Nevertheless, to he who initiated the outrageous and irresponsible personal attack, as evil and scornful as it was, I forgive you. You are forgiven. I do not need or require a retraction or an apology, you are simply forgiven for what you did and said. There will be no retribution, repercussions or revenge on my part, or any further response. What is done, what was done, has been done, and one cannot put toothpaste back in this tube. I was profoundly hurt by what was said and done, no doubt, and it was something that affected me not only in this little internet community, but in my own very real community as well. And this was, no doubt, by design. I did not seek such attention or cruelty, and I certainly was not deserving of it.

Nevertheless, he who wrote what he wrote and did what he did and said what he said, and those who followed suit, as well as those who insulted my recently deceased mother and others who shoved that in my face by posting about what a wonderful person he is who was low enough to do such a thing in the first place, is absolved and forgiven, from my perspective, anyway.

People will continue to think what they want to think, say what they want to say, attack when the feel they want to attack, but the bottom line is that the problem is not in any way, shape or form, my problem or burden to bear.

This is not about me having been beaten into submission as some may want to think and have the unmitigated gall actually to write or discuss. And this is not mere drama. Not by a long shot. I have nothing to fear about the person who did such things, and certainly not by the truth of any circumstance or event or series of events in my life that the person saw fit to judge and comment upon. I take full and complete responsibility for each and every such thing. Nor do I fear any lies or spun tales that some people see fit to promulgate, repeat or about which they may choose to gossip. There is nothing worse than what has already been done and said that anyone can do to me as a person, and certainly words, gossip and innuendo are no exception.

May whatever source of inspiration or guiding light in your life sincerely shine down upon you so that you may have the happiness and contentment you all deserve. No need to respond, reply, comment upon or anything else. And if you are still interested in taking your best shot, I am sorry, but I do not think that there is anything any worse than what has already been done which means that there really is nothing further to say. By anyone. Good or bad. Anywhere.

I regret that you all were subjected to the matters that were raised and how they were raised, and humbly apologize for being a part of such negativity.

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